hello.. it feels like forever since I've last posted.

Hm.. thought thoughts...

1. I'm DEAD for exams.
2. I don't want to study.. because IF the school of accountancy (SOA) changes the rules to get in to the MAcc, my marks this term don't count. So WHY am I studying when all I need to do is pass?

However, I had written to my parents sharing with them all that's been going on in my life and this is what my mom wrote back.

"Don't worry about the change in MACC requirement. Whatever effort you put in would always reward back. What you plant is what you harvest. If the Lord has provide you the gift of $5000, work hard to produce another 5,000. We just don't keep it and not be productive."

Wow.. so true.. (mommy's are so smart) :)

So since my mommy gave me the gift of this pearl of wisdom, I better make good use of my time and study hard! I don't want to let down my family.

I didn't sleep last night thanks to BBT!! ai yah.. good thing Alex didn't sleep either and kept me company! woohoO! or all I would have done would have been homework! Wait a minute.. maybe homework would have been a good thing..
haha no way! it was fun chill'n bud. :)
 
So yes, after the sun came up, alex went to bed and tim came online and told me to check his xanga so I did. and I found this on Kannon's xanga. Now the sun is really up.. 6:41am and I'm still not tired at all.
So I decided to see what type of coctail I am.
hahaha :) I don't know how real this is.. you just dump your name in and it just makes it.. haha
but I think the first bit sounds pretty good.. the beauty part.. haha not so sure. Anyhow, I thought it was funny! :)
 

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Ingredients: 1 part intelligence 5 parts ambition 3 parts beauty

Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum!

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Do you know what's crazy? I'm starting to post less and less.. I'm losing my motivation to post. I find more pleasure sleeping. :)
haha
 
I guess that's not surprising coming from me!!
 
Hm.. what has happened to me this week.. this week has been slower, which has been nice. Nice and relaxed; nothing crazy.
 
Na and Vida and their cousin dropped by to visit on Monday which was AWESOME! :)
The rest of the week has just flown by. Today is the 15th already. In less than a month, I'll be done second year and on to third year. Wow.. Third year means more than half way done my undergrad!
 
Anything profound? mm.. don't act just to emilate Jesus, act with Jesus IN you.
What does that mean? Don't do it for the sake of doing it. Do it because you want to - because Jesus is in you.
What does that mean?
I guess the challenge is to BE the person God would want you to be 24/7 in all circumstances - meaning all the time. 
 
 

Ahh.. my crazy week is finally over.. and there's NOTHING next week!! Well, except for
1. Catching up on all the readings etc I've missed due to studying
2. Prepare for a presentation.. (Oh yah.. that. I had forgotten about that! :))
3. Have a good time! :)

Anyhow, I'm outie. Cramming all last week has left my brain feeling super fried. Give me a week.. and hopefully I'll start having deeper thoughts than just.. "work! sleep! eat! watch movies!"

Oh man.. I watched "Fly me to Polaris" tonight.. highly recommend it!
It's an old chinese movie and it was... a very good movie.

Utilitarian.. Kantian.. Virtue Ethics.. what's right?

Take care all!

Ode to life.

Many of us live each day asking God why? Why must He put us through what we're going through.. why are we here on earth?
Why this road? Why this way? Why this load?

But every breath is a blessing. Every hour, every minute, every second we get to share with loved ones is a blessing.

A friend once told me that hell is not scary because of the burning sulfur and fire, but the scariest part is eternity without love. Many of us feel unloved at times and very alone. But when we think deeper, we do have people that love and care for us.
"It's not the same!"
But consider the people that don't even have what we have..
Consider people who come into this world and leave this world and no one even acknowledges their existence.

I went home this weekend to find out that a boy that I once knew passed away last Monday. I remember while growing up, playing at their house with his sister. They had all the toys I could only dream of and they shared them with me. I used to love going over there. He was the boy that coined me as 'mona lisa' back when I was young. I was never close to him, and I haven't seen or talked to him or his sister in years. I hope he is no longer suffering and finds peace in heaven.

Life is very precious - each hour, each minute, each second. Treasure it. What were your last words? Did you leave with a smile at the end of your conversation?
What would Jesus do?

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
- Matthew 11:28

hm.. so many thoughts, questions, etc.. so many little things have served to remind me of God's incredible grace. :)

Church today was about forgiveness and how it's a choice. We can be in denial, we can seek vengeance, or we can choose to forgive.
Have you ever been wronged? What will you choose?

Aftewards, spent some time with Noella and just shared with each other what's going on with our lives, etc. which was very cool.

I'm going to share with you lyrics to a song. I like the traditional version better, but one thing I really enjoy about this new version is the bridge..

Take My Life (And Let it Be)

Take my life and let it be
consecrated Lord to Thee
Take my moments and my days;
let them flow in ceaseless praise
Take my hands and let them move
at the impulse of Thy love
Take my feet and let them be swift & beautiful for Thee

Take my voice and let me sing,
always, only for my King
Take my lips and let them be
filled with messages from Thee
Take my silver & my gold,
not a mite would I withhold
Take my intellect & use every power as You choose

BRIDGE:
Here am I, all of me
Take my life it's all for thee

Take my will and make it Thine,
it shall be no longer mine
Take my heart it is Thine own,
it shall be thy royal throne
Take my love my Lord
I pour at Your feet it's treasure store
Take myself and I will be
ever, only, all for Thee

Patience my child.. patience...

Ahh.. the week gone by..

Midterms were.. not that great.. but should be okay.
Coffee house was awesome! The turn out was amazing, praise God and hopefully some of what was said would hit home to people. I know some of it surely hit home for me.

One thing that especially hit home was the story of the prodigal son. Bren and I looked at each other and laughed because it came up twice last saturday as both devos after the softball games were on the prodigal son. So when Calla read the prodigal son to us, we thought to ourselves, 3 times in 6 days? Then Alex started putting real life testimony intertwined with the prodigal son story. Wow, now that was powerful. Within 6 days, I've heard the prodigal son story 4 times and all 4 times, the message was different though the passage was the same. None of them added to the story, they all read the same passage from the NIV and shared their thoughts on it.
4 times, I learned something different from it.

I used to picture myself as the older son, the son who stayed wiht the father, asking for recognition. "Are you there father? I'm serving you, working hard for you. Do you really love me?"
Last night, I realized prodigal son doesn't necessarily represent someone who doesn't know God completely. It can be someone who took their lives into their own hands. Someone who saw all the blessings God gave them and thought, "Yah, I worked hard for all this. I'm going to go have fun now cuz it seems like I can make it on my own." That prodigal son(daughter), was me.
It wasn't until I had squandered everything GOd had given me, went off in all the wrong directions and became so desperate that I remembered the unconditional love of my father's home. Not that I didn't know He was there. I'd still remember God, and talk to Him. But deep down, I knew that I had given Him a slice of my life, but not my entire life. The rest was mine.
It wasn't until I completely botched everything up that I came back to God, teary eyed and blotchy, and asked him to mend my broken pieces and make it into what it really was meant for.
Something else I realized though last night was yes, I gave him the pieces.. but I'm like a child, standing beside Him, fidgeting around asking Him, "Are you done yet God?"
fidget some more as I peer over His shoulder.. "Are you sure that piece goes there? I think it'd look nice right here... want me to put it in for you?"
"Are you sure you don't need my help? If we both work on it at the same time, it'll be done twice as quick!"

Then I see God shaking his head lightly with a humoured smile on His face. "Patience my child.. patience.. trust in me."

Patience my child.. patience... Trust in God

So today, I promised myself I wouldn't turn on my computer until I finished all my readings that I needed to accomplish for my quiz tomorrow. My head hurt so much from all the reading (TIP: Don't procrastinate!) but finally, I finished! So I turned on my computer and MSN wouldn't work! So I went onto my ICQ for the first time in ages.

I browsed into my info and a quote was there and it hit me right where I needed it to.
I might be misquoting because I don't have it infront of me:

You earn as much as you make.
You live as much as you give.
God does not promise a calm passageway but He promises to get us through the storms.
If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

What a reminder! :)
It looks like I'm going to be having to spend Canada Day here in Waterloo.. does anyone know of anyone else staying? I don't want to spend Canada Day by myself... :(